What’s next is an enigma…

As I walk through the days of ma life,

As I look into the future ahead,

The path looks blurred,

The future looks uncertain,

For what’s next is an enigma,

And what’s present is all I can trust.

With days so bleak,

With future so gloomy,

Ma heart goes downbeat,

And ma mind goes unconstructive.

For what’s next is an enigma,

And what’s present is all I can trust.

With heavy cross to carry,

With many a promises to keep,

Ma corpse seems tired,

And ma soul quits to respond,

For what’s next is an enigma,

And what’s present is all I can trust.

With opportunities turning upside down,

With every promise being dejected,

I’m left alone with many in the field,

To fight ma battle for existence.

For what’s next is an enigma,

And what’s present is all I can trust.

But I’m a warrior,

Who knows not to quit,

Will tussle through ma battle,

And emerge a victor.

For what’s next may be an enigma,

But in me and my abilities is all I trust!!!

Doing Nothing is very hard to do…U never know when u r finished!!!

It all started as usual morning..opened my eyes to see the time…
fish($#&@) it’s 8am and I have to catch the bus at 8:30am…late as usual…
the last one to get up in the morning…feels like kicking my roomie’s ass…y the hell can’t he wake me up in the morning??…
Without saying a word to anyone I brushed my teeth and did a quick polishing only to remember I have to iron the clothes…rushed the iron through my clothes and I see my roomies leaving for the bus…bang varu, u are late again…
Ran to the bus stand to catch the bus and I see everybody waiting…and I was relieved to see that I didn’t miss my bus…It wasn’t a bad start afterall..

So starts my day:

8:40am: my bus arrives, I take the last seat and again time for some nap..
Pune traffic!!!-- cannot reach before 9:20am to office…and when it comes to sleeping I don’t miss a chance…how much I love doing it…u bet I am best in this job…
9:20am: I reached office as usual. Or was it only 9:10?? Unusually usual!!!
Booted my computer, Tried to open my igoogle home page to read my horoscope, (that’s the first thing I do)…but the server was down. Damn..
Okay forget it…
Next thing… I thought of checking my mails…. but fish (#$%^)!!!??!!
my account just wouldn’t open…
so here, I was helpless, sitting in front of the computer unable to do anything…
Was it for this that I got up early today (8 am is early by Indian standard times!!) and rushed to office…???

Raised some requisitions (zzzz yawn zz) and went up to cafeteria for breakfast…
came back to see no progress in the situation…
made a few calls to the help desk and finally my account was unlocked and then the flow of mails started… (peace…!!)
but darling!! The server which could help me serve my clients was still on hibernation. I was still not able to do anywork….

Some said time to celebrate…
and I nodded…
but soon I realized I had work to complete…. (duh –uh)
and without the server I was helpless…
work will be pending… but dekh lenge yaar…
so I joined in the bakar sessions…
read some e-paper...
Took extra breaks than usual… (just 5 more than the usual 5)
mailed and e-mailed and sent mails…(luckily this worked!!!)
and then what??…
I was getting bored doing nothing…and what struck me was my desktop background
It said, “Doing nothing is very hard to do…you never know when you are finished”
I thought- how true!!…
(Ting tong) -Time to write some crap…
so came into life this post about ‘doing nothing’…
So the big question is ‘for how long can one sit and do nothing….?’
I know the answer!! (:D)
I wonder how do people, who sit on bench for months doing nothing, survive…
I mean, I would have gone crazy!!!….
But I guess it’s all about increasing productivity even when you have nothing to do…
Look!! 1 and ½ years in IT and I speak IT…
What next????
Ummm….timelog!!!
TIMELOG: Date: 15 sept’08
Total hours: 8 Hours
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(shhhhhhhh… can’t mention it!!.. You know what I did today, guys!!:P)

PS: The server should take rest sometime too. My blog was idle for almost two months!!

Editing Credits: Yamini Murty

For you, Sweethearts!!!

Gone are the days of campus masti…gone are the days of fun,excitement and adventure…gone are the days when one use to bunk classes to sleep…to sit in the canteen for hours and chat with frenz…gone are the days of long hours on phone calls…gone are the days of sitting in the green lawns of college in the evening…gone are the days of flirting(I mean it still goes on but the element of college days is missing)…gone are the days when we had crushes…gone are the days of promises and vows…but what remains is memories …memories of moments spent together…moments of friendship…moments of craziness…moments of doing things to what your heart said YES and mind a big NO…memories and moments that will never die…

here is one such crazy moment that I captured and want to bring life to it by putting up on my blog…it’s a poem that “ We” wrote together sitting in the canteen of our college…. Table no:2 Staff section…date:17 april ‘07

It was funny and completely crazy…I don’t know what went on with us when we thought of writing a poem and we actually wrote one… its really funny..but it brings smilesssssssss on my face whenever I read it…it takes me back to the days of our friendship…we took a xerox of it to maintain a copy … I hope now u can read it and have a good laugh ma “mysterious beautiful gal”.

Mysterious beautiful gal…hmmm yes she is mysterious…hmm u can say she is beautiful:)…atleast that’s what she wants to be called “mysterious beautiful gal”…so here it is a dedication to u ma “mysterious beautiful gal “and to all other beautiful crushes of mine:)

Here it goes:

Once I went to the canteen….

Shampooed my hair with pantene…(I neva used pantene in my life though it just to bring the rhyme u see canteen…pantene)

I brought slice and mountain dew…

To impress a girl who was very cute…

But all she said was you…you ..you…

I took her cell phone number..

And she told me her boyfriend was a plumber…

And that he was a big time bummer…

I promised her to to be her knight in shinning armour…

She promised to be my valentine…

And that made me feel divine…

I brought her a coat of fur …

And we lived happily ever after….

Credits: Mysterious beautiful gal

& Varghese Kutty(that’s me)

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Disclaimer: The readers are not supposed to disturb the author asking who the mysterious beautiful gal is?

The author is a busy person and will not answer such silly questions:)

But yes the author is generous enough to take time to read and appreciate your valuable comments!!!

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One Night @ Fluid Lounge!!!

This Saturday night 3 of us decided to go to Apache …the fluid lounge at bavdhan…

Little did we know that we were going to spend one of the best nights in our life…

We entered the lounge and we were mesmerized with the ambience…the instant reaction was - Wow!!!

We started with a mug of beer…then came the next and it went on and on…

To compliment the perfectly chilled beer we had some pahadi kebabs…

It was just 2 mugs of beer in and we could experience our heads banging to the awesome music being played…

Soon we realized it was not only us but the entire crowd at apache who was grooving with music, banging their heads to the beats of the rock…Meantime we finished more mugs of beer and some Bacardi with coke…

And here we were in full euphoria…enjoying the moment…enjoying our state of trance…laughing…talking loud and still not clear:)

I felt as if it was heaven…it seemed the best place on earth…I was in a state of elated bliss…drinks…great friends around…and great music….what more one could ask for….And huh….how can I forget the girl in green sitting opposite to me…what a babe she was...I was in love - It was love at first sight….she still lingers in my mind…uffhh yeh dil….

We were in a state of wild exaltation…enjoying everybit….banging our heads…looking at the mirror above….soon the paparazzi in us came alive…and the flashes and clicks of our camera came into action….

Before Mads realized that I am gonna spend my entire night here…he said “Varu we’ll finish it for today with a tequila shot…”and I with all my innocence nodded my head…for my dil wanted more!!!

After that amazing tequila shot we left the place…though none of us actually wanted to…

Physically we were out of apache but our souls were still there…

We didn’t wanted to end that night so soon by going back home…so we went to CCD…for A lot can happen over a coffee… Robo joined us there only to be bugged by our talks…he ordered some bread with paneer and a café mocha…and he was happy with it….until the philosophers in us came out…that night we had answers to all the questions…all the voids…all the worries life brings with it…one among us would ask a question and bang came the answers from others to justify…

3 best philosophers the universe would have ever produced, were in action…

But we were loving it…we were talking foolishly…but we loved the foolishness…for there was no one to judge us except Robo…

It was some time and now we had to leave that place too…what next was the question…Home…Naaaaaaaaahhh…we cannot waste this night buddy…

So we went to our favourite adda… Reliance…We sat there for hours…

We talked…laughed….even danced….we had fun….we enjoyed..enjoyed to the fullest…

We gazed at the moon….and instantly all three had one song to sing… “aye chand teri chandni ki kasam….mere pass b ek chand hain…”but the irony was that, presently all four of us were lukhe’s…chronic bachelors…single so much ready to mingle…he he he

And then I felt as if the moon is silently laughing at us…and the tequila in me looking at moon said… “aye chand ek din mere pass be chand hoga and that day u gonna envy me”

And everyone was like varu ko chad gayi…

And continued our talks …laughter...fun…as if the night is never gonna end…

Soon the one among us who was in full senses said its high time we should go home now…

And all three of us innocently nodded yes…though we didn’t feel like going home even now…But then we had spend one of the best night in our life…

We talked and we laughed…

We questioned and we answered…

We ate and we drank…

We sang and we danced…

We loved and we missed…

We enjoyed and we had fun…!!!

That night was simply amazing…that night we had answers to all the challenges…that night we learnt a lesson…life is all about enjoying and appreciating…

So here we were brave people challenging the voids life brings with it…for life is all about celebrating…so let’s Rock On!!!

Cheers:)

The Other Side Of My Universe...

And thoughts went on...It is never different!! One of my earlier posts was about how i wanted to give a purpose to my life... But i wouldn't have existed, the purpose wouldn't be there, had My Universe not been there...

And Coming to pune…away from My Universe, showed me life on the other side …life on other side was tough…I was touched to see the helpless children near the Station..Sasoon hospital…FC and MG road…they taught me the worth of My Universe….it was their inspiration that led to this write up…so here it goes.....The other side of My Universe....

I had My Universe made up of loving parents….caring friends….

I had everything..all the necessities and riches a child needs to grow….

Still I used to grumble…fight and cry for things that I didn’t have….

Till I grew big enough and saw life on other side of MY Universe…

I saw the helpless and the needy…innocent homeless little children….

They had no food to eat and clothes to wear…

They had no home to live and parents to care…
They had toys not to play but to sell…

They ate, drank and slept by the street side…

Sky was their roof and earth was their floor…

Still they lived their life…

They wanted to grumble…fight and cry….

But had no one to complain their plight…

And I was helpless with all my might….

Just stood their with tears filled in my eyes…

Felt sorry for all the fight that I had with My Universe…

All I did was closed my eyes and thank the Lord for My Universe…

And begged Him to make the other side of My Universe a better place to live in….Amen

Home is where the heart is!

Home Home I am coming...!

Its yet another beautiful Friday.... Fridays are always beautiful... ask an IT professional and he will vouch for it...and the fact that I am not at my workstation makes it more beautiful...

Its 6:10 in the evening...and here I am peeping through the window of my seat...The wheels move fast to faster...acceleration kisses its zenith...the engine moves vehemently....and I feel nostalgic as the train moves closer and closer towards my destination...my home!!!

Always wondered what power does the place “Home”have?

Big enough you may grow up....you might have all the luxuries of life...you might be living in the most exquisite place on this earth...but no other place can replace the tangibility you have when you are back at your home town...your home where you have spend your entire childhood...

I have spent major part of my life...rather I should say my teens (for life has just begun for me) away from home...Be it junior college...my graduation...and even now I have been a hosteller...away from home...and perhaps this has made my attachment towards home rather less...this doesn’t mean I don’t love my family...but the fact that I don’t need to talk home daily...for I have literally seen people talking home daily...and I have seen people falling homesick...and missing home miserably...

But yes....going back to my home always makes me feel happy...it excites me...exhilarates me... enriches me....Staying a week at home fills me with new vim and enthusiasm...it makes me feel green and newly born...it’s like a stimulating dope after months of hard work...

Now as I fall short of word to express my feeling which is perhaps boundless....

I look outside the window...and I am lost...lost in the ecstasy of nature...the beautiful weather and needless to say my thoughts intoxicates me....so now I put my pen to rest...as I enjoy my trance...

All I want to say is I am happy...enjoying this reflex...for Home I am coming!!!

By The Street Side....

Walking down the street
I saw the street, it was busy...
People moving and I could see the worries and tension they were carrying... and I paused to think what I was doing
Perhaps flowing like the river
I was one among them and then my eyes wandered around to look for a happy man….and I saw a few children playing hide and seek,

I could see they were enjoying...

Unaware of the trials and the difficulties the future had hidden for them
I stood there for a while
Smiling, quenching my quest seeing them enjoy….
Forgetting my worries and responsibilities for a while…
Then I moved ahead with the soul by my side –talking and arguing with me..
I moved and found few old people selling vegetables by the street side...
“Were they happy?”, I pondered, but they were making their living.
Moving ahead I saw few moving in their AC cars – and I questioned again...
“Were they happy?” with all the luxuries....

and I paused to think again….

What was I looking for?
Quick came the answer from my soul. You are looking for a meaning....
A meaning that your life could define...and I thought was I living just to die one day?
Would I achieve my dreams?
Dreams that remain plenty and still undefined….
The path seems empty and unexplored...
I continued walking along the street side with the soul by my side.
Arguing and fighting ….
Still with an unanswered question…
“Will I die before I leave my footprints strong enough to leave its mark?
Will I die before giving a meaning to my life………..

The Genesis….

It is said, “All that begins well ends well…..”

Well here is a beginning of a new blogger…lol…and I hope not to end that soon…again lol…

But yes, I always wanted to have my blog/diary where I can pen down my expressions…my eloquence on my life…my commentary on my friends…my elucidation on my childhood memories…my interpretation on expressions that life brings with it…in short expressions unlimited…

Moreover, being a thinker that I am…what better it could be then expressing my thoughts…penning it down…primarily for myself…and for others…sharing…sharing my take on different aspects of life…

But the sapidity of writing…this experience…this tangibility of making a blog…all would have remained a void….

Everything that you do is a result of some inspiration…either self inspired or an inspiration by someone…and it ends up in inspiration for someone else…This one is basically a result of inspiration…inspiration by a great friend…

So thanks to Yamini…and other great bloggers who have inspired and impressed me immensely….!

Yams, finally I am up with my blog…and my first article…

So, I hope you’ll be more than happy to see this blog coming up…So checkout my blog and beware a rising threat to your blogging business…lolz….

So friends checkout my blog… for this is just the beginning…The Genesis…!!!